Weigh-In Wednesday

I am so excited! Another 1.5 pounds off this week and I got my 2 stone award!

Last week I got my Club 10. I have this habit of having a gain after receiving an award as if I subconsciously sabotage myself. But this week I really worked hard at staying on track as I really wanted another loss. Every time I have a gain it feels like it puts me three weeks behind where I should have been since you have a week of gaining and then a week of taking it back off before you can get back to having a loss.

But, yes! I did it! HELL YES!

That is TWENTY-EIGHT POUNDS!

I was a size 26/28 when I started this. All of my clothes are too big now. This week I got some tops and trousers in 20 and 22 from a couple other ladies doing the sponsored slim. I held up the 22's and thought, "These are going to be too small." Guess what? Too big. I am now a size 20. That's an 18 in American sizes. I just can't believe it. Can't believe it.

In control

Over the past week I've been attempting to eat smaller portions of food at meals and to cut out snacking in between. During this time I've made a discovery.

This is going to sound completely ridiculous, but all this time (my entire adult life) I think I've been mistaking not-being-full for being hungry.

Wow.

Just, wow.

I've known for years that I've had food addiction problems and problems with emotional eating. But this revelation has just blown me away.

I've spent the week trying to enjoy the feeling of not being full.

This must sound so ridiculous to other people.

I'm feeling very in control of myself at the moment. I'm managing to eat healthfully and to control my appetite. I'm very focused on my goals at the moment.