This week's weigh-in

I've now lost a total of 18 pounds since the 4th of January. 

I lost two pounds this week. I was really happy with that loss considering the bad day I had this week. I was prepared for the scale to tell me something I didn't really want to hear and realized that I was okay with that. I've had a major shift in my attitude this week and I know that it doesn't matter how fast or slow the weight comes off because it's going to come off and that's all that matters. So every week that I have a loss is a really good week no matter how small.

On Plan

The past few days have gone really well. I've been staying on plan even though it's sometimes a struggle. I get plenty to eat and I eat food that I like but I still fight cravings.

I've started incorporating some exercise into my plan. I've done some Moky (dance aerobics) with some Youtube videos like this one:

It's fun so hopefully it's something I can stick with. I've also started a floor workout that has been provided to the sponsored slimmers by Floor Fit - Carlisle. And, we have a rowing machine that I will get some use out of as well.

I quit drinking diet soda a few weeks ago and it's really made a difference in my appetite. And I no longer have to think about the awful stuff that aspartame might be doing to my body.

I've got some Linda McCartney vegetarian sausages in the oven that need to come out so I'm off to finish making my lunch.

Comfort Eating

Why is it that some of us comfort eat? If I could change certain things about myself, comfort eating would be a contender for the top spot.

My husband and I have made the decision to move from the northwest of England to Glasgow, Scotland. It wasn't an easy choice but we decided it will be best for our family in the long term. So for now it's a great source of stress.

The moment we officially made the decision I told him I kept switching between feeling like I wanted to sit down with a big bowl of pasta and bread to wanting to puke. Instead, I went with a Big Mac meal followed by a pint of Ben & Jerry's from the grocery store.

It made me feel better.

Why??? It hasn't changed the fact that we're moving , we're going to be poorer, we're going to have no support around us and that I'm going to have to attempt to find friends again.

It also will not have helped with my weight loss.

Usually, I feel guilty when I do something like that. But I didn't this time. Instead, I woke up the next morning, realized it was a new day, and was back on plan.

The lack of guilt this time actually helped. The last time I ate bad I beat myself up over it for days which led to days of bad eating. A vicious cycle that I've managed to avoid this time by simply acknowledging that yeah, I probably shouldn't have done that but it's one meal out 21 this week and it doesn't have to destroy me.

Another new start

I'm going to call today Day 1.

I've been struggling the past week and a half so it's time to draw a line under it and start again. This is why I've decided to start blogging. I hope it will help keep me focused on my goal.

My main goal right now is just to try to lose something each week. I'm currently participating in a sponsored slim and friends and family  have donated money to support me and the cause. We are raising money for the charity SANDS in memory of a little boy named Alfie-Joe who was born sleeping.

Just Giving Page
If someone comes across this and would like to support me and/or this cause, any size of donation is welcome and appreciated.