Weigh-In Wednesday

Well, I lost 1.5 pounds this week I got my stone and a half award tonight! That means I've lost a total of 21 pounds.

I've been struggling a bit but I've been doing okay. I've started logging all of my food on My Fitness Pal and it's been good to see what my daily caloric intake looks like. It's actually been quite low and on a few days I fell just under 1200 calories which is apparently the minimum anyone should be eating, according to MFP. It's weird to be told I'm not eating enough when I'm eating plenty of food... it's just what I'm eating.

I really really need to get off my butt and start working out. I've felt so down lately that it's been hard to give myself that push but I should make a deal with myself to just do it this week. Anything is better than nothing.

Struggle

I'm really struggling tonight trying to fight cravings.

I've been having a rough 24 hours with the little one. I think he's sick or something is hurting, or something. He's just being a monster and it's not like him. I'm having a hard time coping and it's just making me want to eat. I wish I understood why.

I guess it's good that I'm recognizing it, but it's really not helping to make it any better.

I. JUST. WANT. TO EAT.

It sucks having issues with food.

“Never trade what you want most for what you want in the moment.”

This is my mantra for the night.

Weigh-In Wednesday

I put a pound on this week.

Last week I said I wasn't going to get crazy on my birthday but it's exactly what I did. And I spent all week trying to make up for it.

I wish it hadn't happened. But it did, now it's over and I've already moved on.

I have a new week ahead of me. If I can get that pound back off along with an extra half then I'll get my stone and a half award next week. Easy peasy. I can do it.

A Visual Reminder

I orginally came across this idea on Pinterest which linked to Hot Mess Princess. I looked for jars to use for this for ages and just couldn't find anything that I liked. I finally settled for pint glasses. Wilkinsons was selling sets of four for 88p. That's cheap and I like cheap. A sheet of letter stickers for £1 at The Range and two bags of marbles for 50p each at Home Bargains.

The title of my blog says I have 93 pounds to lose but that was from the start of my blog. My actual goal from the start was 100lbs. So, here are my Motiviational Marbles.

80 to lose, 20 lost!

In control

Over the past week I've been attempting to eat smaller portions of food at meals and to cut out snacking in between. During this time I've made a discovery.

This is going to sound completely ridiculous, but all this time (my entire adult life) I think I've been mistaking not-being-full for being hungry.

Wow.

Just, wow.

I've known for years that I've had food addiction problems and problems with emotional eating. But this revelation has just blown me away.

I've spent the week trying to enjoy the feeling of not being full.

This must sound so ridiculous to other people.

I'm feeling very in control of myself at the moment. I'm managing to eat healthfully and to control my appetite. I'm very focused on my goals at the moment.

Newspaper articles

Our local newspaper has been great about supporting our sponsored slim. I haven't posted the first article here yet but will do so now. They published another article today about the girls who did a free Moky session this week. They've been great about getting us publicity!

Sponsored slim for stillbirth charity in memory of Carlisle baby

Carlisle slimmers use Moky moves to raise funds for charity

This week's weigh-in

I've now lost a total of 18 pounds since the 4th of January. 

I lost two pounds this week. I was really happy with that loss considering the bad day I had this week. I was prepared for the scale to tell me something I didn't really want to hear and realized that I was okay with that. I've had a major shift in my attitude this week and I know that it doesn't matter how fast or slow the weight comes off because it's going to come off and that's all that matters. So every week that I have a loss is a really good week no matter how small.